What Is This Feeling? (July 30)

• Found out a lame thing about one of my favorite stores in Pohang today – you can’t try on any of the very cheap shirts/skirts/dresses, but you also can’t return them! You can’t have it both ways, Korea! In addition, I have decided that I can do most things alone but I still dislike shopping without a second opinion. It’s too hard to decide on my own! Plus, there’s extra pressure when stores have parameters like the aforementioned store.
• I came to Gumi tonight to hang out with Rachel before she leaves. We’ll be close-ish back in the States but it still might be a long time before we see each other again. We had naengmyeon (cold noodle soup) and Cafe Bene gelato, then went searching for unusual chocolates and candy to bring back home and are now enjoying some good movies. It's totally indicative of our personalities and relationship and is a good way to say, “See you soon”.
• Focusing on being excited to go home has helped me forget that going home means that I’m leaving the place and people I love here :( This realization came to me on the bus tonight and I was feeling very panicky. I don’t like it :/ Up until now, my feelings have been relatively neutral – bad days/wanting to see people at home evenly balanced with good days/ loving it here. And in the case of the latter, I could suppress the sadness of my impending departure date. Not anymore...