I'm not unemployed anymore - I actually have a very fabulous job as a preschool teacher with the University of Michigan child care centers. But I'm still posting, albeit a little more irregularly, and I don't want to ignore the personal progress I've made since starting this blog by renaming it.

Blog inspiration: I read 48 States in 48 Days by Paul Jury in the summer of 2011. It was fabulous...although he planned way less for his roadtrip than I would have. And at the same time, my lovely Anna was constantly reminding me that our lives were awesome, despite the fact that we didn't have job prospects, new cars, boyfriends/husbands, houses, etc., like so many people we knew. So, in an effort to appreciate my life and the crazy uncertainty that it is, I started writing this blog about the little adventures I have. (And by "writing a blog," I mean "making a list" because I make lists, not narratives.) Even if there isn't a BIG adventure that happens every day, I try to find at least one thing to list :)

Monday, January 9, 2012

Lucky

  • Sometimes, I wish I were lucky enough to have specific dreams to chase after. I feel like my goals are very general and I know it's because I don't want to be disappointed if I don't attain them - fewer expectations mean fewer opportunities for disappointment. I used to think that this was me being laid back...I am starting to think it might be me being lazy. Not having specific goals = less frustration at not reaching unspecified goals = not having to work hard to attain detailed/difficult dreams. I don't want to be like that though. Which is part of my motivation for pushing myself to go to Korea, I think. Maybe I will discover some unrealized goal, or fulfill dreams I didn't know I had while I'm there. That would be pretty great.
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  1. Krystle ForbesJanuary 11, 2012 at 8:35 PM

    Comment, if you are lazy... I don't want to know what other people should be classified as.

    I think few better words might be undecided or nervous or apprehensive... all leading to some type of avoidance.

    I believe that a great deal of all of this stems from your dislike for change. BUT good news (as your best friend... I like to think about ways I can be there for you... and I came to this realization today) sometimes change can be good. Remember when you moved to Mattawan? It was super crazy to leave everyone in E.R., but if you hadn't have done that think of all the randomly amazing stuff that you did? (plus, rather selfishly, we probably would have never met)

    I'm not quite sure if this comment turned out to be what I was intending; I was hoping to cheer you on in your push to try new things, make new goals/dreams and go to Korea. I am pumped for you.

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    1. EmilyJanuary 16, 2012 at 12:40 AM

      Thanks Bestest. I'm trying to see it all as good stuff, as I know it will be - but, you're right, I hate change and this is big and hard. Love you lots (and love all the people who are being so supportive of me).

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